rhythm and movement

the past couple of days have been overflowing with things to be grateful for.
thursday we had tai chi class which relaxed me and made me feel like i was starting to put some things right with me and my body.
friday the resolution of a major stress at work. then i got the official promotion (and increased pay) to match the work i have been doing the past six months and reviews to say i've been doing it well.
Saturday i slept in then had a drumming class that just woke up something magical in me. i loved it, the community and i was totally in the zone. will i buy myself a drum and continue at home?
then i had dancing in the evening. it pushed me harder and was more enjoyable than my usual martial arts workout. too bad it is not a long term option.
then the church service on Sunday where the reading was on needing to be of use even if the task is mundane. followed by lunch and a sewing class that just opened a long dormant creative side.
and all throughout my husband has been very wonderful to me. i've probably gotten to the point of annoying him because i've said so too much.
the best part is that i get to do it again next week and many more. this winter is set to be very inspiring.
even my business trip is turning out to let me visit my parents tomorrow evening if only for a little while.
life has been good lately.

bad habits and ex-boyfriends

procrastination is haunting me these days. too much time checking emails and forums. not enough being productive. i am thankful my work gives me the flexibility, but perhaps it is a little too much at this time.

the other thing on my mind lately is exes. the first one i am glad i didn't resume contact with although things still remind me of him. the second one i ran across online. his flicker page reminded me of his artistry, his humor, his sense of adventure and being at home in the world. it made me very thankful for all he had taught me. for a while i couldn't remember why i wasn't still in love with him. i think it has something to do with a lack of commitment to the relationship. but at the same time i ache to show my husband how he reminds me of 2's good parts and show him those parts that have made me who i am now. but i can't because i know firsthand from 1 how much that would hurt.

business creativity

i sometimes feel a conflict between my work and my artistic side. the linked article addresses some of that dilemma and is sympathetic to my struggles.